Ideas and Opinions

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Reality Dream Reality

I am getting conscious of my surroundings now. I can feel the heat, I can smell, I can hear voices around, I can feel the love of my parents, I can even dream. They are not pleasant, I always die at the end of the dream. It is painful. I am bewildered and I don't know where I am. My dreams are so real, it makes me wonder if this is a dream too and am I going to die in this? I don't know. I am just going to sleep. Perhaps if I sleep in my dream, I can wake up in my reality. But if this is my reality then I will start dreaming again.

"When I look in to your eyes ... I can feel the love restrained ..." Ah! now that's a beautiful song to jog for. It's a fine weather today and too bad I had to work till 7 in the evening. But I decided to do my evening Jog inspite of that and I am glad I decided so. Who wouldn't want to Jog in this perfect weather with a mild breeze and a great song on the radio. huh ... huh ... huh ...(panting is heared for a while)...great ... the light is green for me, let me quickly cross the road now before it turns red. screeechhh.... ahhhhhh...(a car runs over him)

Oh God! Another dream of death. I think I accidently kicked on the wall. Where am I now? looks like the same place. It feels like eternity. It feels like I will be here forever with dreams torturing me. I am only hoping this is not another dream. So far this has been pleasant. But all my dreams start very pleasantly and ends with me dying. I still want to hope this is not a dream. I am smelling my favourite now, it tastes great and I have had this several times. I just don't know what it is.

"Vande Mataram!" Shouts of this slogan was heard everywhere. I lead my group of men in the huge crowd with an air of freedom slogans filling the entire nation. The police charged upon the crowd. One of the police was working his way with his Baton and as I walked raising both my hands and shouting "Vande Mataram!" the baton hits across my face with full force, breaks my nose and fractures my face. Blood gushes out of my face and after that I can't hear anything. Everything was silent, as though someone had muted the entire world. I lose my balance and my eyes are pondering over the crowd, the police, the trees, the sky … until I see some familiar faces approaching him. I see them shouting something but I am unable to hear. I am weakly feeling them holding me. The light fades in front of my eyes.

And I wake up again as I let go my bladder. "When I look into your eyes ... I feel the love restrained...uuhh" Oh God! I hear this song again ..."Darling when I hold you ... Don't you know I feel ..." sounds like the same song from my dream. I am scared now!

I fall asleep in my bedroom. I still feel body pain. Ok, Let me think of Happy moments. Oh god I can't breath. This is something serious ... I can't move out of my bed. I can't open my eyes ... oh God save me!. Let me try to get the phone. Oh no, I can't move my left hand, I am feeling heavy there. Let me try again ... noooo.....ahhh...My right hand..I'll use my right hand ...I can't reach the phone ... I can't shout help! Ahhh my chest is paining now .....

And I wake up again. Wow! This is the only dream in which I didn't die. But it felt like I was dying. Hopefully I didn't die. There it goes again, I think it is time for the water to cycle. It has been dirty for a while now and I don't have much space to move around. Oh no ... The water is receeding, it is going out. Can someone tell me what's happening around here ...! Mom why are you screaming now. Oh God! Please help me, I am slipping down I am not sure what is going to happen to me. Ok, now my head has hit the wall, I hope it stops here. I am alright now Mom, don't scream. Why is she still screaming?

I throw up. I close my eyes and I see the black sky with a lonely star. The star is approaching me, closer and closer and is swirling in to form a tunnel and fills up the entire sky. Someone is pulling me into the tunnel. This is immensely painful.

And I wake up again and cry. Oh! I am born.

The above story is a sequel to my earlier story - JOE KARTHIKEYAN. If you guessed it right it is Karthikeyan narrating his experience in the womb. I hope you like it.

13 Comments:

  • that was a great imagination dinesh... liked it very much :-)

    By Blogger NaiKutti, at 7:49 PM  

  • spooky!! i have similar kinda dreams! :(

    By Blogger kalai, at 9:35 PM  

  • You have a strange way of thinking/imagining which I admire :-)
    I think dreams reflect our deepest thoughts which get silently amplified during our subconcious sleep. I once read how a physicist analytically checks his dream experiences. Pls check Feynman's book 'surely you are joking Mr.Feynman'. It is absolutely hilarious about how he does his sleep experiments by closing eyes and waiting to find when he 'actually' falls asleep, can he see color in dreams, can he feel touching something etc :-) When I asked my friend who sleeps a lot, about this, he says he feels like being in two places at the same time..he says he can vaguely sense both his dreams and the outer environment simultaneously. Did you try to check your dreams with some so-called dream interpretors??

    By Anonymous VJ, at 3:05 AM  

  • @vj

    yea vijay,...thats true...once i had a dream abt earthquake...my ears were deafening with the 'noise' in the dream! but still i knew it was a dream...i wanted to get up from that but i cudnt!!! and this is juz one of the strange dreams....

    this one at once reminded me of the joe story by dinesh! and it is scary! :(

    By Blogger kalai, at 9:58 AM  

  • Naikutti: Thanks!

    VJ: Thanks. I will try to get that book from the library. I just narrated the story as how the child inside the womb will be feeling when he is becoming alive and conscious of his surroundings. I never checked my dreams with an interpreter.

    Kalai and VJ: I have had dreams like that too. I would be in the dream and then I would realise that I am dreaming and I am in my room sleeping. But If i try to wake up I may not be able to pul l myself up from sleep. It is a wierd experience, but I think it has all to do with our consciousness.

    By Blogger Dinesh babu, at 10:50 AM  

  • @Dinesh
    I am sure you will like that book. It is full of fun. About dreams, I agree..it has to do something with our consciousness. I get dreams only when I am terribly obssessed with something and that really comes in my dreams! But when I goto sleep fully tired, I donot get any dreams. The brain has surely something to do with it and Feynman in his own way tests it. BTW after reading Joe's story and its comments, I liked the idea of the story based on uncertainity principle. But as you might guess, I still donot fully agree with a soul-body concept. For some multiverse concepts, you may check lectures on quantum computation at http://www.qubit.org/people/david/David.html

    @Kalai
    As the story suggests, do you think you have some inter-universe contacts with your own self during your dreams?? You already seem to be thinking a lot about spooky interactions. Maybe the experiences of your counterpart Kalai#x in universe#x is coming as dreams to you!!!Spooky isnt it! You need to analyse this. **Me smiling** I was just trying to scare you more :-) Maybe the real reason could have been someone knocking/banging hard on your doors.

    By Anonymous VJ, at 12:32 PM  

  • Hey VJ .. Thanks for that link and good info. Abt your question to Kalai, I already posted a similar comment to Naikutti's Blog. I told him that probably our dream is a mixture events occuring to us from various other universes, since I hypothesised that a Consciousness(I would prefer not to use Soul to you since you dont believe in it)can also follow uncertainty principle. Which means it is possible for our mind to exist in various parallel universes and that is the power... what do you think ? - Same question to Kalai too!

    By Blogger Dinesh babu, at 4:16 PM  

  • wow...Good narration dinesh....interesting..:-)

    By Blogger Kris, at 5:06 PM  

  • Oh..I have not fully read all your earlier comments. Yes Dinesh..I am slowly starting to believe that we might be in multiple universes even physically!! But seriously when I suggested this to some physics guyz a few months back, they bashed me left and right with some jargons which I didnot understand :-( But if you have already watched the first lecture on qubit, what it says is if there is a dinesh in this universe, it is a snapshot of many dineshs in many many universes. 'Dinesh' as such in whole includes all the ensemble of dineshs in many universes. The system 'Dinesh' has some static properties which is common to all your counterparts and has some dynamic properties which varies with the environment in each individual universe. When we measure dinesh-1 exactly(sharply) then due to UP, we cannot measure exactly how will dinesh-x, x=2,3,.. behave. Also they claim, this measurement might be affected by other measurements in counterpart universes which they call as quantum interference. I like to believe that even mind or consciousness is a function of our physical body if we know all the laws. So quantum interferences of dynamic properties of consciousness might be our dreams. But honestly, I find such concepts little bit difficult to fully believe. But if the quantum computer will be built in next few years out throwing all classic computers, then I will fully believe. This is my state for now. Can you think of crude ways to test the above concepts by ourselves? Dreams are good..but Science will not accept anything till it can be experimentally verified.

    By Anonymous VJ, at 6:04 PM  

  • VJ - Your comment was a feast to my mind, Thank you. I would imagine so too - If electron has a possibility of existing in two places then we build out of these basic materials have all the chance of being like that. But as you said, we are still too primitive to conduct experiments that will prove our theories. Currently, only indirect methods are employed like analyzing the particles spectrum from atom smashers and hearing the echo of the big bang by using Gravity wave detectors, you probably know more than me. Hopefully when science solves many of these puzzles, I guess our understanding of life will completely change. That will be when we will be super intelligent and super civilized. I believe the efforts in Quantum computing will be fruitful.

    Again, Thank you for such a good discussion. I am yet to read those lectures, I would have if i haven't been whiling away my time watching Grounded For Life and now The Hook for probably the 3rd or 4th time, But I will be.

    BTW, Do you have a blog of yours?

    By Blogger Dinesh babu, at 7:00 PM  

  • Yes Dinesh..I think we will get more new ideas in a few years from now. Most of the physicists are waiting for the largest particle collider (LHC,CERN) in the Franco-Switz borders to start working from 2007. Let us wait and see.

    I donot have a blog. After checking 4-5 blogs which I visit regularly, I think it will take lots of time and effort to maintain one. So i just prefer to come and watch some interesting blogs when I find time. Hoping to see more interesting stories based on multiverse at your blog.

    By Anonymous VJ, at 3:21 AM  

  • Kris - Thank you.

    VJ - yeah read about those particle colliders in that book "Parallel Worlds". That is good because, we will get to know something during our lifetime. Hopefully, M-theory will be proved soon and our civilization would advance more.

    By Blogger Dinesh babu, at 8:05 AM  

  • Hiya, I enjoyed your posts as I'm looking for abuses of dream interpretation See you again soon

    By Blogger John, at 7:02 AM  

Post a Comment

<< Home